Day IV

For the last six months Taxol has been my poison and according to my recent c.t. scan it is holding the cancer at bay so this is good for me...Right? Yes, I know it is better than the alternative so I take my poison without hesitation. My regimen is three weeks of treatment, then one week off. After all this time I have noticed this pattern in my mood on the fourth day following treatment. I feel a sense of being completely overwhelmed and my anxiety slowly begins to rise. Soon after that I become this sobbing mess or I seem to shut completely down, even from myself. I will soon call my husband at work as I always do on this fourth day. He comforts me and trys to work me through my mental anguish. I wonder, Does anyone else on taxol experience this or is it just me? I also feel heavily fatigued this time around. Maybe its because I just had three weeks off . That gave me quite a bit of time to recoup. Now I am feeling slammed and I'm on my way to the couch to catch some Zzzz's..