Hey Kizzy

I decided to do this blog as a form of therapy for myself. Anyone who reads my blog will be reading intimate details about myself and my life. I just decided to be real and deal with this head on. So no, your question is not too intimate. It has only inspired me to open up even more. For those who are just tuning in, Kizzy, my sister-in-law, asked me what do I think when I look at this particular picture of myself.

Moments after I posted the picture I thought, OH GOD LORI, What were you thinking? That's a horrible picture of myself. I ridiculed myself. I saw the weight I have gained, the lack of eyebrows, eyelashes, and the thinning of my hair and thought what a mess I have become. Now, just after writing the above, I say to myself, "it's not what you did to yourself, it's what the chemo did to you." Then the anger in me arises and then I say, "Fuck Cancer." "I want my life back"..."Why me?"....But you know, I think I am slowly learning the answer to the, "why me?"


Kizzy,
Thanks for the therapy
Love ya!