Yes I realize that I am writing less and less these day. To better understand my absence I will tell you that I am going to IOP classes again (head therapy.) I feel as if I am starting to come out of "it" again ("it" being depression.)

Yes my big 30th Birthday is on November 27th. Thinking about my birthday is one contributing factor to my depression. You see as lame as it sounds, not only was I diagnosed with Stage IV unknown primary cancer just 7 weeks after my marriage to Cary but I was also happened to be officially diagnosed on November 27th the day I turned 27 years old. This year I am not excited at all about my Birthday. Sometimes when I reflect upon the last three years I just can not believe that this is or has happened to me and my life. I had no clue, this whole thing just broadsided my husband and I.

Anyways, I have chemo tomorrow morning at 9:30 and it is now 2:00 a.m. Friday morning. My eyes are beginning to feel very heavy. I am not sure what kept me awake long enough to write this evening. Oh man now I am nodding off. Better go to bed now.

Sweet Dreams