Growing, Growing, ... Gone??

I know that many of you are waiting for a update and once again its going to be brief. The Doc. has put me on all kinds of new meds. and I am having a hell of a time trying to adapt.

My last appointment with the Doc. was not the way I had scripted it to be. He must not have received the "final cut." Seriously though, he was only able to drain a little over 1 liter this time. Ya, I say pooh to that. He had to schedule an appointment to have the perma-catheter put in. He then told me it was time to be taken off this chemo because it didn't appear to be working. Then I said, I have just now only received one full doses of the stuff, How can you say for sure that it is not working?? He then said, I will order you a CT.Scan this Friday. I think to myself... much better.

Now two days after my "catheter" appointment... still retaining fluids but this time not only in tummy but also in legs, ankles, feet, toes, and other places I thought not possible. This time I think man this is it! Maybe my Doc. knows that my body is saying that enough is enough. So, I call him, let him know whats going on and ask him about that catheter as I could desperately use one about now. He tells me he is sorry but it is going to be at least two weeks. As for the time being I must go to the Doc. in oncology to have my fluids drained... the bad news is that he can only drain my abdomen... as for my other extremities... well he prescribed a water pill. I can only hope this can bring some form of relief. If not, I really don't know what will happen next.

Now I am starting to fade... yeah!! Sleepy time.

Just a few more things and I think I will have brought you up to date with all my drama. I recently fired my Oncologist of three years. Three years to long anyway. Her attitude was becoming really pessimistic, now I know that they need to remain realistic but I felt like she had given up on me. Frankly, I am not ready to quit so I found a new Doc., one who still had some trix up his sleeves. Imagine that, and my last Dr. said that there was "really nothing more that could be done" and "have you thought about ending treatments." I will quit when I am ready, my body will know. My body will know better than some Doc. will. In fact here is something I find remarkable. My last Doc. said I would last 6-8months with out treatment and even more discouraging my new Oncologist said that the average person with my type of DX would last no longer than 4-6months. Keeping that in mind, I have not had a successful treatment since July of 2006. So it has now been 8 months. Granted, I know things could go terribly wrong from this point but it just does not seem that way. I am not bed ridden, I can still eat (to much) go on errands, hell I even planted my first veggie garden this week. Now I hope to see them grow, then I hope to enjoy eating them.

There was one other thing that I wanted to fill you in on. It was regarding my new Doc. and his new chemo regimen. That will have to wait till next time. I am TOO TIRED.

As for now, please keep your fingers, toes, eyes, and legs crossed for me on CT Scan Friday.

Tom C., your right the sun makes everything a little better, I've been spending a bunch of time outside... I just love the spring.

Erika, thinking about you, wishing things were different for the both of us.