Day 16: Things I'll Never Forget About Lori

Her Cute Little Toes!

Lori always said she was the luckiest wife in the world... not just because she'd found a loving, studly husband ;) but because I loved to massage her feet and toes while she stretched out on the couch at the end of the day.

I knew her legs and feet hurt from the chemo, and I knew that anything I could do to help relieve her stress and anxiety would always be much appreciated---but mostly I just loved to be close to her whenever possible, and a foot rub was a very good excuse to do just that.

This photo was taken in the San Francisco International Airport (SFO,) while Lori and I and the other six maniacs we were traveling with were waiting for our plane to Japan, in the Spring of 2004.

Having been on hard chemo for just over a year at this point, Lori took every chance she got to catch a few Zzzzz's, as they say.

I love the way she managed to fit right under the armrests... I think she slept like that for at least an hour.

Anyways, Lori always kept her toes painted pretty---usually purple or maroon---and she was the envy of the Chemo Suite, because I would attend her treatments with her whenever possible (probably a good 95% of the time,) and I'd rub her feet and toes while she received her drugs.

Lori had the cutest little toes, and I miss them terribly now, along with just about every other part of her.

I carry her in my heart now, where I can keep a close eye on her, and make sure she's always OK, but I haven't found a way to keep rubbing her toes...

Maybe in my dreams.