Oh, Insomnia... Wasn't missing you

Now listen here brain. It is very important that I get a good night's sleep. There are things I must do this weekend. My mother-in-law Alice is moving from her current aptartment and into a new one in East Sacramento. Much better for all of us. We both have accumulated stuff over the years and we are planning a yard sale this coming Sunday. Yeah, Yeah, I love yard sales. I am excited about this one (and possibly another the following weekend) Why is this yard sale so special?... well because Alice is donating half her proceeds of the sale to "our group." As for me I will be donating everything I can minus the expense of some money that must go into the repair my camera, (I miss my camera, it just hasn't been itself lately, its not living up to it fullest potential. Sounds Like a certain girl I know.) Hmm, now that I think about it I will have to have a pretty successful yard sale to pull that off. If anyone reads this, cross your fingers for us! I will have to get up early Sunday morning and make myself presentable. Please pardon my ramblings. It's late; blah, blah, blah, blah, blah; blah, blah, blah; blah; bblllaaaahhhhh.

Lisa from England I want you to know that last weekend I went to the bay area and spent time with a best friend and relative of mine Neela aka Michelle. I thought of you often when I was down there, imagined a certain day when you are well enough to come out for a visit. Girl, it will happen! I hope you are doing as well as can be. : )

Neela I had a wonderful time, I missed you so much and look forward to seeing you more often. Dino I miss you 2. I hope to see you next time I am down, it was my fault. I wanted to spend the whole weekend with Neela. We had so, so, so, much to catch up on. Forgive me? You cant stay mad at me can you?

Kizzy I had a blast on Friday and it was great to finally have met with Tammy. I will definitely be down more often. Half of my friends and loved ones moved to the bay! Then there is Steve Ganz who my husband and I would still like to meet. I hope you don't think me crazy. Oh hell I think I may be just a little bit nuts, but I am hoping its only temporary. ; ) JK, JK, JK, o.k.?

As my father used to say, "What the heck ten four over and out."

going nanners : ),

xoxo,

Lori

"May Offend"

All righty then, has anyone seen my hormones? My mood is so up and down and down and up. I am confusing myself, can't imagine what you guy's are thinking.

Anyhoo, Wednesday I went in for my blood work and as I was walking back to my car I noticed a motorcycle who's owner had left behind its helmet and on this helmet there was a sticker that said "I'm not losing my hair, I'm just getting more head." I thought it was hilarious, but I realize that the comment is "adult related" thus titling my post "may offend."

Today for lunch I received a plastic bag full of toxic liquids. Pre-meds and taxol. Yum? I am tired so that's a rap for now folks.

Oh, one more thing. I can't thank enough: Aeryn, Jamie, Lisa x, Torrie, Dana, Amiko, Yvonne, Sandee, Scott and team, Larry and Flo, Kizzy, Joyceling, Grandma(s), Nella, Gaela, Alice, mom, and most of all my husband Cary who came home from work today baring a dozen red roses just because. You guys are so supportive, understanding, patient, loving, and kind. It's you whom inspire me, you keep me going and going, you really do! Cyber hug and kiss from me to you. As for Cary, you get the real thing! ; )

will post ya later!

xoxoxo,

Lori

Stuck In A Moment

Ladies and gentleman I write to you this evening to announce that I feel as if I hit a brick wall. Is it writers block? I don't know. I am thinking that I just feel overwhelmed at the moment and so writing has taken a back seat. I know I will be back once I have taken care of some personal business. I learned the hard way recently that I must take care of my own needs first before I can help others. So I am going to do just that, I don't know when I will be back. I hope it does not take very long. Who knows I may be back next week or next month, but I will be back. :) I will probably be touching bases with several of my peoples personally... just to make sure all is well and to seek some advice or opinions. If its o.k. with some of you I may need a shoulder to cry on. This menopause stuff sucks! As if cancer/chemo itself is any better. Any who, I will blog at you later.

As always,

Love,

Lori

Katrina

This disaster that has happened in Louisiana and Mississippi has left me feeling numb, and well kind of speechless. God help those people.

Lisa Of England

Dear Lisa of England,
I woke this a.m. and read the comments that were left. Your comment jumped out at me and said to me that we need to talk. I want you to know you are not alone in your suffering. I wish I knew more about you or had some way to contact you other than live on my blog. If you feel comfortable enough, Will you please contact me via email? Check out my "about me." :) You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Stay strong girl, I'm hear for you,

Love,

Lori

Awesome Ollie

Ollie
© Lori Miller 2005

I'm back! I mean I feel much better than I did yesterday. I went to IOP this a.m. and found it to be very helpful today. Each day in IOP there is a quote written on the large dry erase board. Today that quote was; "I never knew a storm so grey, it failed to have its clearing day." I became excited after reading that. Then I became excited because I realized I became excited and that is an emotion I have not felt in quite sometime. :)Or as a true native girl from California would say: "Oh my gosh, I'm like totally excited and stuff.

Anyways after IOP it was time to pay my weekly visit to Ollie. Once again Ollie, you turned my frown upside down. She just has this way about her... she makes my weekly trip to the Labratory more dare I say... fun? Yes, fun. She makes me laugh and she always lifts my spirits. As you can see from her pose she has a great sense of humour. So this post is for you Ollie.

Tonight my husband and I are going on our annual first date to the California State Fair! That means it is time for photo booth pictures and some deep fried heart attack on a stick.

MY husband and I have started designing my second blog... this means soon I will be turning this blog over to you out there. Whomever is reading this and has cancer or had cancer. Further details to follow! I must now go and prepare myself for some Fair Fun.

Post Later,

Love to all,

Lori