Yes I realize that I am writing less and less these day. To better understand my absence I will tell you that I am going to IOP classes again (head therapy.) I feel as if I am starting to come out of "it" again ("it" being depression.)

Yes my big 30th Birthday is on November 27th. Thinking about my birthday is one contributing factor to my depression. You see as lame as it sounds, not only was I diagnosed with Stage IV unknown primary cancer just 7 weeks after my marriage to Cary but I was also happened to be officially diagnosed on November 27th the day I turned 27 years old. This year I am not excited at all about my Birthday. Sometimes when I reflect upon the last three years I just can not believe that this is or has happened to me and my life. I had no clue, this whole thing just broadsided my husband and I.

Anyways, I have chemo tomorrow morning at 9:30 and it is now 2:00 a.m. Friday morning. My eyes are beginning to feel very heavy. I am not sure what kept me awake long enough to write this evening. Oh man now I am nodding off. Better go to bed now.

Sweet Dreams

Miss me too....

Wish I was feeling more like my self again so I could be rebounding. FYI- I am back in IOP again. Still ironing out some major minor details. As you can tell, it seems to be working... because I am here posting.

Once again I would like to thank the endless friends that have check in on me. You guys are like my medicine. I feel so blessed to have meet so many wonderful peoples. Well now my eyes have began shutting against my will. So I think it is time for a wrap.
Before I go off to lala land their is a certain person I am in search of. I need a illuastrator, someone who can draw a cartoon of myself. Anybody know anyone that can or would be interested? Please email or just leave comment.

Gaela... thanks for the card, I think it is a wonderful Idea that you come over, eat chocolate, sip coffee and maybe help brain storm ideas with you!

Aeryn, I wish you were not so far away... we need to talk about those critters soon ;).

Well tomorrow is chemo day. : (

BUT..........

For a early Birthday present my husband bought me a ticket to see U2!!!! So I we drove down to Oakland this last Tuesday and watched U2 perform.AHHH ... be thankful for what you do have! Thanks for the greatest B-day present my love! : )

Good Night

Lori