Now Where was I ?
Hmm??
Geez its been a while. To long I suppose. Definately time for me to start writing down some of those inner most thoughts.
My last Ct Scan took place around the first of May. It brought me an update that has jolted me into a scary place. It was my worst fear. The cancer is alive and growing again. My two largest tumors one being in my lung and one in my liver have both shown signs of growth since last Scan. It was devastating for me to hear that. My heart dropped even lower this time. My heart begins to race, I begin to cry. So the Navelbine was no match. I think to myself... gawd, what will be? My docter informs me that we are beginning to run out of options. Options meaning chemotherapy drugs. Chemotherapy drugs that fall under the catergory for treating cancers of the breast and lung that is. You see treatment for my cancer is a guessing game. It is a long, long guessing game that has been challenging my body, my mind, my spirit for 3.5 years.
So what now? I am now receiving... oh nut's, I can't remember off the top of my chemo head, and its late and I am too tired to go look it up. Cytoxan? Adrenmycin? I am sure the spelling is wrong, but it is a cocktail of two chemotherapy drugs. The side effects are lame (like, duh!) that goes without saying. I have sickness, nausea, hair loss, fatigue, oh lordy! I have never been more tired in my life. The adrenmycin(?) is very unnerving reason being that patients are only allowed to receive this drug six times. It can cause heart damage. I can attest to the fact that it definately causes heart pain and irregular heart palpitations while under "its" treatment. I have only received this drug twice. My regimen is one dose of each drug every three weeks. I have one more treatment and then I have another CT Scan to see if these drugs are doing the job.
I am scared, anxious, and feeling desperate.
Thats all I can give for tonight. Over and out.
Peace and Love,
Lori
P.S.- Meagan if your still reading... I lost your email. Mail me so I can mail you back?
Kathy, I will write soon.
Sandee, thank you for your concern, you are such a sweetheart.
Lisa, I will see you soon, right?
Geez its been a while. To long I suppose. Definately time for me to start writing down some of those inner most thoughts.
My last Ct Scan took place around the first of May. It brought me an update that has jolted me into a scary place. It was my worst fear. The cancer is alive and growing again. My two largest tumors one being in my lung and one in my liver have both shown signs of growth since last Scan. It was devastating for me to hear that. My heart dropped even lower this time. My heart begins to race, I begin to cry. So the Navelbine was no match. I think to myself... gawd, what will be? My docter informs me that we are beginning to run out of options. Options meaning chemotherapy drugs. Chemotherapy drugs that fall under the catergory for treating cancers of the breast and lung that is. You see treatment for my cancer is a guessing game. It is a long, long guessing game that has been challenging my body, my mind, my spirit for 3.5 years.
So what now? I am now receiving... oh nut's, I can't remember off the top of my chemo head, and its late and I am too tired to go look it up. Cytoxan? Adrenmycin? I am sure the spelling is wrong, but it is a cocktail of two chemotherapy drugs. The side effects are lame (like, duh!) that goes without saying. I have sickness, nausea, hair loss, fatigue, oh lordy! I have never been more tired in my life. The adrenmycin(?) is very unnerving reason being that patients are only allowed to receive this drug six times. It can cause heart damage. I can attest to the fact that it definately causes heart pain and irregular heart palpitations while under "its" treatment. I have only received this drug twice. My regimen is one dose of each drug every three weeks. I have one more treatment and then I have another CT Scan to see if these drugs are doing the job.
I am scared, anxious, and feeling desperate.
Thats all I can give for tonight. Over and out.
Peace and Love,
Lori
P.S.- Meagan if your still reading... I lost your email. Mail me so I can mail you back?
Kathy, I will write soon.
Sandee, thank you for your concern, you are such a sweetheart.
Lisa, I will see you soon, right?
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