Tumors Gone Wild

Ummm... The results from my latest CT Scan confirmed my fears. The tumors have increased in size and number in my liver and lungs. My DR. expressed some concern that the disease may have spread to my bone marrow thats because my platelet count has been at a stable low quite some time after treatment. So for obvious reasons I have been taken off 5FU and currently can not continue any form of chemotherapy in fear that I might bleed to death if I nick myself while shaving my legs. I also must refrain from juggling knives, walking on glass and climbing barbed wire fences. Anyhow I have been put on a new drug, Tarceva, which is a protein kinase inhibitor. A what? Ya... I have no idea . What I can tell you is that it is given to people with lung cancer. There is no brutal "blood" side effects like that of chemotherapy. Some people who take the drug get a bad skin like rash but that is about the worst of it. So I get to relive my pubescent years. The DR. also expressed several times that there is no evidence suggesting that this will work for my type of cancer... whatever type that is? I should know in 2 months time wether or not it's going to work.

In the case that it does not work there is 1, yes, one more chemotherapy that I have for back up. I asked the DR. for brutal honest truth and she did not hold back. She gave me a prognosis of 6-8 months given that these last two drugs do not work out. Damn... that was incredibly hard to type. It has been quite a struggle but I am finally coming to terms with my mortality. Not that I never thought I would die... its just... well not now anyways. Gotta go seek the comfort of my husband now.